Do I really believe?

1 Corinthians 1:7 – “Therefore you do not lack any spiritual gift as you eagerly wait for our Lord Jesus Christ to be revealed.”

1 Corinthians 4:20 - “For the Kingdom of God is not a matter of talking but of power.”

I’ve been asking God to prepare me spiritually for what’s ahead in my future. As I studied these verses, God’s message to me was clear. The power of the Holy Spirit resides in me and with it, I will spread the Good News not through my words, but through my actions. I meditated on this throughout the day, and as I went to bed, God whispered to me over and over, “I am me. Let me be me.”

I'm learning what it looks like to believe I hold the power of the Holy Spirit. When Jesus sent His disciples out, this is what He said, “Heal the sick, raise the dead, cleanse those who have leprosy, drive out demons. Freely you have received, freely give.” (Matt 10:8) As Jesus sends me to Swaziland, He is sending me with these same commands. In my right hand, I hold the power of the Lord; I have to learn how to use it.

There is no doubt in my mind that God performs miraculous works. I've experienced it first hand many times. Where the Lord is challenging me is: Am I living it? I don't live a life that is fully dependent on the Lord at it's robbing Him of what He's capable of.

Jesus healed a blind man with mud made with saliva, brought Lazarus back from the dead, cast out evil spirits in Legion and fed four thousand with seven loaves of bread and a few fish. Our God is all powerful. I need to stop saying it and start acting like it. I need to start living with a childlike faith. God is pleading with me when He says, “I am me. Let me be me.”

“Everything is possible for him who believes.” - Jesus (Mark 9:23)